Angels and the deuce

AGAINST ALL ODDS……………

I know you have some reasons to look back but don’t
Lets move on
You may also have a reason to cry but please don’t
Don’t do it over bygones
Things may not be looking good right now but hold on
It’s only for a while
Keep your head up and don’t despair
Just do what you should
I know sometimes it seems so unfair
But stick by your rules
You can get through this you have a strong mind
Just listen to your heart
Forget all the pain in the past and look at the bright side
And you will free you mind
Forget whatever they meant when they said that…………………
Because you are stronger than that
And please don’t beat yourself so hard
The darkness will soon pass
Look at yourself in the mirror you are too precious
Never forget that
Against all odds you will make it
Just trust yourself
Hold on and be strong you will weather the storms


ANGELS AND THE DEUCE

Now you couldn’t be more skeptical
About who you hang out with
Quickly envy is turned to jealousy
You can’t tell angels from the deuce
Today people sit close to you
Tomorrow they are on the other side of the rail
They will push you in front to get behind you
You know they couldn’t cope with the pace
Now they wish you too would slip

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BLINDED

Its funny how some people want to be you
They think that your life is all smooth
Even wish that they could trade place with you
They look and think that it has been all- smooth
Truth. Outside looks cool but sometimes inside is blue
But they are blinded by envy they can’t see through
Give them half your day and they couldn’t pull through
With nervous breakdown they would lie in I.C.U.
But cool is how their eyes see you
That’s why you will constantly see them blind staring you
But how could they possibly know or tell
That they can’t be themselves and be someone else
That even when they see you there
You could be far away miles and miles


WITHIN

Within herself she is trapped
And only from outside
Does she see herself
Her body is trapped inside itself
She moves from here to there
but cant escape hersrelf
Her emotions are as crossed
as her strained laughter
Expressions on her face
are masked under a screensaver
In her mind ideas are threaded
from the past to the future
While her body is still
Her mind races ahead miles and miles
Setting her mind free as she floats in dreams

Him, Her and them

His mum is mad at him
Her mum doesn’t know what to believe
Her friends too are mad at him
Because he didn’t wife her
And that is not all
Because when she calls she wont answer his calls
She won’t event let him near his son
Now he is mad at them
He goes to her home and asks to see his son
They don’t let him
He tries to speak to his son’s mama
But she shakes her head
He keeps getting spurned but he doesn’t give up
He swore by his sons name never to give up
Everywhere he turns people are staring at him
Someone even told him that he is an absent dad
He goes back to his home and they too ask him questions
Angrily he goes, I am not catholic I make no confessions!
His whole world is upside down
He gets so engaged but he holds himself back
He wishes it was a dream and he’d wake up.

trapped,grey and others

TRAPPED
Like I had one body two hearts
I keep getting torn apart
Doubt of doubts in myself creeps inside
I cannot decide
Who is wrong and who is right?
It’s hard to discern
Who will be seen and who will be heard?
It’s hard to decide
I hear different words from different voices
Which one is right?
What do I follow is it my mind or is my heart?
Help me decide
I pour water to douse the wars raging inside my hut
But the waters bring down the walls
I keep fighting myself spilling my own blood
Am edging closer to self destruct
My blood has turned against itself like sickle-cell attack
Stuck am caught in the middle hurt I can’t go back
And I can’t go forth


GREY

No new days
Yesterday is today again
No new changes
Yesterday replays again
No new stories
Old dull stories retold again
Walk this path today
Tomorrow follow the path again
There is no room for invention
Follow the fools and don’t question.


RELATE

Before you say me
You only heard of me
Before you knew me
You only saw me
Before I spoke
I bet you only guessed
Now that you know me
Do you see me
As you saw me then?

images personified

She wanted to be like me
People had seen her walk
She walked just like me
They also heard her talk
She talked just like me
She often sat with a paper and wrote
Was it like me?
She kept to herself just silent
You said it was like me
Funny some people thought she was my twin sister
They couldn’t understand
When they looked at her they saw me
Mirrored back like a wraith
I bet when she looked at herself in the mirror she saw me
But how could she explain?
I tried to look for her but I couldn’t find her
Or maybe I was blinded
I told myself that the answers are within
And I tried to explain
We are not really the same but we are similar
We are cuts of different cloth
But of the same texture
We maybe be sharing the same blood group
But different rhesus
We are different pages of the same chapter
She was only my shadow not who I am

I was only a dream trapped inside her
Choking out her character

grovel

Her voice is a solemn tone
She is a snob and she walks alone
Boys try to be friendly but she shuts them out
Her life is complicated she hurts when she smiles
Her life is a pipe a broken pipe
She starts to write and words just leak out
She writes sardonically about life
A life she knows nothing about
Even about a daughter a daughter she doesn’t have
Lost she wakes everyday wanting to become,
And she doesn’t
She slinks about the way trying to find herself,
She cant
She writes insipid stories as she stews in silence
You’d have sworn she is holy deceived by her countenance
She uses these writs as blinds that she hides behind
Her father bought her a bible
And taught her about Jesus Christ
But she turned on the radio
And washed it down with rock and rap
She said Tupac’s words had taught her to fight
She didn’t say a word what the bible had taught her about
She uses harsh words to mock the world
But like words have life they mock her back
She is wont to that so she lets is pass
Her readers love her but they can’t make her out
They think what she writes is crap
If only they could tell her that.

for myself

He wanted to talk to her
He wanted to be close to her
Maybe he wanted more than that
He wanted to know the person behind that beautiful smile
The more he saw her the more he wanted to spend more time with her
He wanted to know what was in her heart
But he couldn’t see her did he only see her twice?
He went home everyday thinking about her
He lay in bed lonely she was still in his mind
He thought of their last conversation and he just missed her
So he took a pen and a paper and wrote for himself
I have been seen with this girl morning, noon and night
And every time we talked this girl would make me laugh
How I love it when I watch her smile
And the feeling I get when I hold her hand
She is ever present in my dream every night
I awake with her name on my lips like a prayer
Every single day I can’t wait to see her
Everything she says keeps playing back in my mind
The thought of not seeing her hurts my heart
But memories of her lives in my heart