Not okay..but its okay

The highs are heavens high
Top of the summit high, higher above the clouds
Then we fall so deep below
Floor of the ocean low, under the ocean bed low

We are so happy today, we ain't talking tomorrow
Im confused without you, only you help me find myself
But the lows are crushing blows, Its really so hard hold on
I think I call you we talk, then wonder if its easier to let go

I do love you still I can't never deny
But this is hurting both of us so much I know
I wish we'd stay happy
But we crash and so far apart we fall

We are silent but that makes me think of you even more
I am unhappy and it makes me miss your jokes even more
We can rise above this I feel but do we know how?
(The last line of this poem was never written)

 

For Beverly

She is beautiful, she is sweet

Just as I pictured her in my dream

She is caring, so loving

More than I had dared to ever dream

When she holds my hand

Time comes to a halt

And it’s just two of us in the world

Everything else fading out

I’d say she is the sun and the moon

Like King Henry V said of Princess Katherine

I give up trying to describe her

For no word I choose does her justice

Her soul is peaceful, her heart is pure

She is an angel and an angel is like her

From her I learn, beholding her in awe

How to love selflessly, to love with my all

Her voice conjures up a smile in me

Even from across the city when we talk

And every time she hugs me tight

I wish I’d remain in her loving arms forever

Her words are warm, her words are lifting

Just hearing her voice my joy is complete

Heavens’ been listening, heavens’ answered

And Still I pinch myself to be sure I aint dreaming

Tomorrow belongs to us I know

I know that without a doubt

Tomorrow we’ll be united as one

At the height of our in towering love

But today already bears witness

To that love that stand above

And shines its light on our common path

As we walk, united forever hand in hand

Can I tell her story...

She is lovely, she is beautiful
She is sweet, caring and kind
She is charming she is witful
And her smile will melt your heart

I know so, we know so
Because she has touched our hearts
When we crash and fall
We go running to her healing hands

She makes me laugh
And if she doesn’t she makes gasp
Don’t know how she does it but oh she does
Make us all feel loved

...to a friend

I wish I knew very little
And in learning I were slow
That I was considered a fool
And my friends were few

Than if my I.Q was up the chart
And the grasp of my mind sharp
And yet when you sat there sad
I knew not how to cheer you up

..of her beauty

If the skies opened up
Revealing beauty beyond the Milky Way
And the stars shone their light in beautiful colours
Like flowers full in bloom in spring time
And if the skies perfectly lay out
Like one priceless hand-painted portrait
I'd see that and still rank it much lower
If I compared that to her wondrous beauty..

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This loud voice we have tried to muffle
Busied ourselves so as to avoid its calls
Refused ourselves time to think or feel
And tried to starve and famish it completely

But it cries to be spoken out and acknowledged
If for nothing else for the beauty of its promise
For the sweet chiming bells it rings in our hearts
And for the joy it spreads when our inhibitions lift

Shall we yield to this voice in our hearts?
Tear down this high walls we have built around us
Allow ourselves to express this longing in our soul
And in expressing it set ourselves free forever

Free to bravely explore what may become of us
When fear falls and hope sets us lifting on its wings
When everything is possible and our path a common one
Facing the future together, hand in hand standing tall

Part 3......Something bigger than himself

...this poem is poem under construction..

Then he was jolted by a force of a thousand waterfalls

He trembled as he saw the roof of darkness fall

Rushing light fell all around him, spreading fast to settle

Let there be light, someone had let there be light!

And light brilliantly shone over his cupped face

His hands wet with tears, forgetful of himself like a child

The brightness of the light was visible under his closed eyes

Shaken, he dared not open his eyes; he wanted to but would not

There was absolute quietness, even his heartbeat was muffled

His mind was blank, clean like a book of plain empty pages

There was no thought in mind, there was not one

He waited for one, but none came, not even one

There was not a pattern formed in his mind

Images floated in his head making his heart flutter

Then warmth, warm enough to dry his falling tears

He opened his eyes again, to see trees swaying in the wind

...................

...of Her Smile

Banish me from this city to a far-flung world
Build high walls all around that I cant climb back in
Strip me of all I own and give me a villain's send-off
But grant me one wish, let her face be the last one I see

Let my memory of this city fade away
That I have to ask for directions on every street corner
Let me get lost a trillion times if I may every day
But may I never lose this sweet memory of her smile

For even when I wonder through the streets lost
Stand at the crossroads not knowing which way to turn
When in my mind I see her face, all the burden I carry fall
And joy bubbles up inside me lifting my spirit up

She frees me from all the worlds cares
Unclenches me from the gripping holds of fears
One look at her and I am so full of life again
She with her bright spark reignites my dimming light

...of hope

Here where disappointment has visited and left its marks
Where pain has cut so deep leaving behind deep scars
where will has been so severely tested and faith almost lost
Here, even here, in the ashes lingers the inextinguishable rays of hope