To be..Thats the answer

To be,yes, that's the answer
To lift and stretch towards one hope
To one dream, and so be united together
Breaking from ourselves to become one

And being one,
To believe, to trust, to be
To love not just one another
But ourselves too

Where Our Beautiful Thoughts Rest

Away darkness and nights
Away sleep and dreams
Come fountain of light
Fill our cups with your radiance

Let us drink and fill our hearts
Make our heart and minds light
For our little and much delight
Bathe us in your light

Cloth us in your robe of rays
And our feet and wings make light
So we can speed past lightenings
Fast past our flaw-filled ways

And there to float in your warmth
There where our beautiful thoughts rest 

Not okay..but its okay

The highs are heavens high
Top of the summit high, higher above the clouds
Then we fall so deep below
Floor of the ocean low, under the ocean bed low

We are so happy today, we ain't talking tomorrow
Im confused without you, only you help me find myself
But the lows are crushing blows, Its really so hard hold on
I think I call you we talk, then wonder if its easier to let go

I do love you still I can't never deny
But this is hurting both of us so much I know
I wish we'd stay happy
But we crash and so far apart we fall

We are silent but that makes me think of you even more
I am unhappy and it makes me miss your jokes even more
We can rise above this I feel but do we know how?
(The last line of this poem was never written)

 

For Beverly

She is beautiful, she is sweet

Just as I pictured her in my dream

She is caring, so loving

More than I had dared to ever dream

When she holds my hand

Time comes to a halt

And it’s just two of us in the world

Everything else fading out

I’d say she is the sun and the moon

Like King Henry V said of Princess Katherine

I give up trying to describe her

For no word I choose does her justice

Her soul is peaceful, her heart is pure

She is an angel and an angel is like her

From her I learn, beholding her in awe

How to love selflessly, to love with my all

Her voice conjures up a smile in me

Even from across the city when we talk

And every time she hugs me tight

I wish I’d remain in her loving arms forever

Her words are warm, her words are lifting

Just hearing her voice my joy is complete

Heavens’ been listening, heavens’ answered

And Still I pinch myself to be sure I aint dreaming

Tomorrow belongs to us I know

I know that without a doubt

Tomorrow we’ll be united as one

At the height of our in towering love

But today already bears witness

To that love that stand above

And shines its light on our common path

As we walk, united forever hand in hand

Can I tell her story...

She is lovely, she is beautiful
She is sweet, caring and kind
She is charming she is witful
And her smile will melt your heart

I know so, we know so
Because she has touched our hearts
When we crash and fall
We go running to her healing hands

She makes me laugh
And if she doesn’t she makes gasp
Don’t know how she does it but oh she does
Make us all feel loved

...to a friend

I wish I knew very little
And in learning I were slow
That I was considered a fool
And my friends were few

Than if my I.Q was up the chart
And the grasp of my mind sharp
And yet when you sat there sad
I knew not how to cheer you up

..of her beauty

If the skies opened up
Revealing beauty beyond the Milky Way
And the stars shone their light in beautiful colours
Like flowers full in bloom in spring time
And if the skies perfectly lay out
Like one priceless hand-painted portrait
I'd see that and still rank it much lower
If I compared that to her wondrous beauty..

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This loud voice we have tried to muffle
Busied ourselves so as to avoid its calls
Refused ourselves time to think or feel
And tried to starve and famish it completely

But it cries to be spoken out and acknowledged
If for nothing else for the beauty of its promise
For the sweet chiming bells it rings in our hearts
And for the joy it spreads when our inhibitions lift

Shall we yield to this voice in our hearts?
Tear down this high walls we have built around us
Allow ourselves to express this longing in our soul
And in expressing it set ourselves free forever

Free to bravely explore what may become of us
When fear falls and hope sets us lifting on its wings
When everything is possible and our path a common one
Facing the future together, hand in hand standing tall

Part 3......Something bigger than himself

...this poem is poem under construction..

Then he was jolted by a force of a thousand waterfalls

He trembled as he saw the roof of darkness fall

Rushing light fell all around him, spreading fast to settle

Let there be light, someone had let there be light!

And light brilliantly shone over his cupped face

His hands wet with tears, forgetful of himself like a child

The brightness of the light was visible under his closed eyes

Shaken, he dared not open his eyes; he wanted to but would not

There was absolute quietness, even his heartbeat was muffled

His mind was blank, clean like a book of plain empty pages

There was no thought in mind, there was not one

He waited for one, but none came, not even one

There was not a pattern formed in his mind

Images floated in his head making his heart flutter

Then warmth, warm enough to dry his falling tears

He opened his eyes again, to see trees swaying in the wind

...................

...of Her Smile

Banish me from this city to a far-flung world
Build high walls all around that I cant climb back in
Strip me of all I own and give me a villain's send-off
But grant me one wish, let her face be the last one I see

Let my memory of this city fade away
That I have to ask for directions on every street corner
Let me get lost a trillion times if I may every day
But may I never lose this sweet memory of her smile

For even when I wonder through the streets lost
Stand at the crossroads not knowing which way to turn
When in my mind I see her face, all the burden I carry fall
And joy bubbles up inside me lifting my spirit up

She frees me from all the worlds cares
Unclenches me from the gripping holds of fears
One look at her and I am so full of life again
She with her bright spark reignites my dimming light

...of hope

Here where disappointment has visited and left its marks
Where pain has cut so deep leaving behind deep scars
where will has been so severely tested and faith almost lost
Here, even here, in the ashes lingers the inextinguishable rays of hope

my brother be telling me..

She likes me my brother be telling me
Good for her to show ambition I be telling him
But hers is a desire of the moth for the star
Shelley called it the devotions of something afar

Or am I gonna make her dream come true?
Abandon myself and allow her come to my rescue
If my brother is right then for her I really wish I could
For her happiness not for me won't that be good?

But I can't, not for her but for another I could
And I should... I will; I will when time is good
When I have talked to my girls..
I got gals? Good gals, hows that for honesty!

So she likes me my brother be telling me?
She is merely making numbers I tell him.......
He laughs..
And before he stops I look at him and I too start

My kingdom and my Crown

Sweet, beautiful, charming..
The holy grail of my love
Coming to teach me to dream

Though beauty be said  fleeting
And charm be deceptive
Her's is true and everlasting

Her's never grow old
Coming to reach me to live
Breathing new life onto my soul

Love rock solid silver and gold
Its goosebumps and giggles
Its forever youthful, ever young

She is my redemption
Im phoenix rising
Beauty from ashes is my song

Her smile, her laugh, her voice
All for me, all my own
My own kingdom and my crown

holding tightly on your hand

Across the table where those two lovebirds sit
There you and I sat thousands of hours ago
I want to forget and think of the one I am now with
But helpless I watch the past and the present collide to battle

On these very selfsame streets where we walked hand in hand
Our footprints close to each other are buried under layers of time I think
And as we walk with the one I am with I have you in my mind
Time has passed but in my mind memories tower over the reality

My heart leaps when I hear Jennifer Hudson's song you used to like
The one I am with sings along and arouses burning jealousy in me..
I cannot pretend, my heart is beating to another say in a different year
The one I am with tries but cannot understand me, how could she?

She loves me she tells me and I love her........ I think
But she can see right through the lie that is us I hope, I really hope.

to you..

Were you here with me today
Sitting right here by my side( and always)
Quietly even without uttering a word
Still unending joy would pour forth

Were I to see you now
Coming to me even though for a while
Though you'd soon be gone
Still you'd leave me with a delightful smile

Were you to talk to me now
Or any time day or night
And just say as little as just hello
Still your words would be of much comfort

And were I to make one wish; one prayer
It would be of us together, forever

my guards broken, my laws have crumbled..

Somewhere in the deep of her heart
A spark ignites warming and lighting her face
And I behold in awe the most beautiful smile
A smile that pushes all emotions off its way

And that warmth catches on me
I forget all else and on her I'm transfixed
She conjures up a smile in me
I am under her spell it seems

Her warmth, comforting warmth beckon me
My guard is broken, all laws I know crumble
My mind becomes ungovernable
My heart is set, My mind obey only one will

To be near her forever
To hold her hand in mine
Never to close my eyes ever
As I admire my beautiful mortal angel

That alone, nothing more, is i want
Its all I can ever want
If I will labour to have her for keeps
Then, undoubtedly, I foresee my labour being so sweet

My crown of many lights

The suns pate sinks deeper over the horizon
A flowing flood of darkness chases the fleeing light
Light like a coward retreats without a fight
All its energies spent its brightness fast fades out

Night which can utter no word announces itself to millions
Spreading itself and covering everything under its dark veil
No wick nor floodlights, nothing will keep darkness away
It must rule the night before morning comes and it’s dethroned

Pity and shame for the sinking sun turns the moon red with anger
And it steps out to help its bigger and brighter brother illumine the earth
The stars too refuse to endure watching its kin put to shame
Out one by one, the little of the family to the biggest they all shine

Darkness is thwarted in its attempt to entirely rule the earth
Man, whose walk would have been halted by the flood of darkness
Stands, stops, and turn his face upwards with a grateful smile
His words are soft and heartfelt, a cross between poetry and prayer

His emotions a sighing, a relief, a jubilance…
A new awareness, a restoration of something which was fast breaking,a mending
Hope and joy propels his mind, sky by night becomes his fast library
And he reads captivated by newfound wisdom, almost a new religion

Wisdom is above, God is above, light too mustn’t be hid but put above
The veil of darkness is shredded by the piercing rays of light, rays of hope
It will exist, but not triumph, the sky is mans crown, the sun, moon and stars
And though the crown be so high we forget, it’s still on our heads lighting our path

Of thoughts of future and now

Are we the future
Or when does the future begin?
Where, who could be sure
Is the line dividing?

If its not of today dependent
And its its free of history's influence
Then my thought of tomorrow
Are the most perishable

Dying on the ground they're planted
Denied a chance to grow
If its so, and my hope is it isn't
Then the present is more valuable than gold

Now that I can feel my pulse
Now that I can talk with you
Now I"ll truly live my life
Whether in the future I'll belong or not.

Oh Happy Day

What a happy day!
Someone help me count my blessings
Someone can't they're too many
Someone needs to call an accounting firm
Call delloitte and touche
And call a studio while at it
Tell them to come take a picture perfect smile
It won't be here forever
Or it might, but I won't be here forever
(touch wood or whatever!)

But wait, I don't got time time to wait
Better yet I don't got time to waste
You get your cameras out you'll thank me later
Click with your phones camera you'll get yourself a wallpaper
And I'll always be there smiling at you, smiling with you
You can pay the debt by smiling back at me,- won't you?
But you don't have to, keep the debt to yourself if you want
Lets create happy memories of this day, lets pack them warm
And after the cold night comes, they'll still linger on
They'll be your friend on a hostile day, let us let them

See how generous I am, See how freely my happy thoughts I share
And It's not my birthday, and its not a payday or some happy anniversary
Yet I feed your memory, let the happy bug spread it'll make no one angry
Oh and I've remembered this,-.. and I didn't get a kiss from a girlfriend
(Take that last line one line up it'll make fluid flow)
See I'm imperfect with these lines and still my joy is perfect!
The cold is biting outside but it won't soak my lofty spirit
It's like I've been reading Leo Tolstoy's quote all day like a mantra
"If you want to be happy, be"
Why I am I don't know, I don't care, I just am!

Keep Me Away From Evil And Bad Gals..

Who am I O lord?
What is my cause?
That you should bring me this far?

O sovereign Lord
You have shown me much grace
And let me know your favour

Is this your usual way of dealing with man?
What am I that you should consider me?
That you should care so much for me?

What can I Phat say to You?
You do things according to your will
And for the sake of Your word, Your living words

You take my hand when I've fallen and raise me up
Indeed there is not one like you
You are the great I AM

You are unchanging, You are not mere man
Your words are trustworthy
And you delight in fulfilling all your promises

I am humbled by you
And yet I pray
Walk with me dear Lord
Shine your light upon my path
Walk before me making the crooked paths straight
Hedge me from behind and in front me
Keep your protection upon me at all times
Protect me O lord even from myself
For my heart and thoughts oft lead me astray
And keep me away from evil and bad gals always

Have mercy on me do not deal with me as I deserve
I appeal to your goodness and your Love
And teach me Father
To know you so I may learn from you
That I may be transformed to be more like you
To love others as I You love me
I am inherently weak, strengthen me
My wisdom is folly, Teach me true wisdom
I plan but I can bring nothing to fruition
So Bring my plans into being

Reveal to me your will upon me
That I may know my true purpose
That I may live and be according to your will
Use me through all you have equipped me with
That I may not feel unworthy among your great creations
Yet teach me to be humble
Let your peace be in my heart
Take away my anxieties and give me your calm
My faith, my trust in in you
let it be so, now and hereafter, and forevermore

First part of the poem adopted from David's Prayer

Tomorrow, and tomorrows that follow

If tomorrow comes
And finds in my element
whether the cold will sharply bite
Or the sun will rise to bath us with warm rays
whatever,I hope it finds me in full flourish
In faith, in hope, in joy...

My heart pumping with renewed expectations
My blood warm and flooding my veins
Unlocking paths to whole new galaxies of thoughts
Of bright new dreams that will fill my day
And to fill, to last, embedded in my mind forever
To inspire me tomorrow and all tomorrows that follow

One Day.

(When Darkness Engulfs Daylight)

In days that are coming
Whose progress I cannot halt
Nor their march thwart by heavy arming
One day is to me truly sworn
To bring my life to an ending
Nearer and nearer it footstep draw

Its oath it has never broken
For all men born
It stays faithful to its cause
So when my life it deems full of term
Then wherever I'll be
In the air, land or sea, it shall come

Its shadow will be felt
When its heavy darkness engulfs daylight
I will have left, nay, taken
And only left behind an extinguished frame
One more stump
Where towering life once flourished but death felled.

Finally here we are

Finally here we are
At the folding bridge
Carrying us forever
To a new unfamiliar world

Here, Soon, before our very eyes
Our dream will become a reality
And having dispensed with the past
We'll embrace a whole new world

A world of our own creation
Here, far away from where it all began
We bravely chose our dream
Believed even when we had little to go by

The dust on our feet will wash away
As we walk on these new grounds
The old memories too will fall behind
As we have a feel of this new world

Like in the past adventures
It's us, us only for each other
And God smiling for us from Above
The bridge tilts! Let embrace, embrace the future.

Journeying towards..

When you fly away across the land and the seas
Through the winding way of the skies
To the other side of the moon and shining stars
Carry my hope and dreams with you

When you stand dwarfed by Mercury, Venus, Mars..
Watching the flaming meteorites zoom past the dark holes
Feeling alive there where you truly belonged
Keep too the memories we created here on earth

Then even when my aching soul longs for you
For that touch of tenderness of your human-angel hands
My hopes in your bosom, my dreams breathing truly
I will upon waking from this sleep see that beauty as you do

I will see with your eyes, and smell what you smell
The beauty of the world without
The smell of things heavenly
What no eye has seen except of the one who first created

Have no fear, shed no tear
I will live freely only if I let you leave
And as it has been, our lives in each others hands
So shall it ever be, lets let it be

Let your body lift and float above
Your shadow shielding me, always comforting me..
Towards heavens, towards object of light my eyes ain't seen
Lifting and lifting I will be with you as we move towards oneness.

How much more Human?

This headache will split my head
These shoes are killing my feet
Can't wait to put this bag down
Remove my shoes &sock and let my feet breathe

Wouldn't I kill for a cool glass of Pepsi?
Trade all I own for Shower and a massage?
And sleep, sweet sleep, healing sleep!
If I could have all that now, now, now!

My girl is waiting for my call
Kinda makes me wish I'd never promised I'd call
There is a mountain of work tomorrow
My best years I'm selling off for hard cash

Ain't that cause for little sorrow
Oh how human have I truly turned?
Wishing for, wishing for..
Wishing for a quiet moment in the midst of chaos

Making The Transition.

Yesterday is so gone
Broken down out like a million fine particles of dust
My boot-prints blown
The sand keeps no memory of where my feet stepped last

Today I've left the gravel path
And now I walk down this rich red carpet
It too I'll leave behind
Not my footprint though, here too they can not last

My fingers prints are everywhere too
On that warm coffee cup I tightly clasped
On the mouse at the cyber too
They too won't last ain't that so sad?

My old friends have forgotten my number
Tomorrow they'll struggle to remember my face
That will not matter much I'm making new ones
And everything I am they all love to remember.

Going Home (cyber-write)

From home to town
From town to coast,...and back
Turned the wheel full circle and some!
& while I was away a whole calender has gone to trash

Now maybe its time to go back
Not back home cos you know what they say,``homes where your heart is''
And my heart is in my chest so wherever i am.....?go figure!
Your son is coming home, ..will it be from town to home and back?

Uniting Us. (Abridged version)

Love stands far high above us
As if looking out for us
Love is in itself holy and pure
And humbly it charms us forever

When we break love it still lingers
It is the god of second chances
There is no condemnation from love
When we are down it lifts us up

Love holds the world together
Delighting in bringing us closer
It is the keeper of hope
It inspired Eros

Through a thousand years love remains
Without losing its zeal or fervor
It will take your hand at your point of departure
And travel with you if you want forever

Love lives for every single one of us
We are all beauties in love’s eyes
In touching us love changes the world
In accepting love our world is changed

Love gives peace to our souls
Love instructs our actions
Through it broken souls are redeemed
Through it we cherish in giving

Love has put a thousand smiles on our faces
Bringing us warmth and laughter
And when we have lost it
Troubled we seek to regain it

Love is the god of Life
If taken away from us
Our world would be weary and cold
And everything would lose its meaning
Hail to this love

I Give You Phat

Step up to receive him
Cool and calm claims he
So come playing classical
Or come playing Neo-soul
Pavarotti in the background
John Legend out loud

Step up to receive him
Cool and smart claims he
So bring Kant's categorical imperative
Ditto Baruch Spinoza's thesis
A bit of Swinburne's poetry
And ready to discuss Shakespeare’s classics

Step up to receive him
He is all he claims but also human
He enjoys Cadbury's chocolate
And or Coke if not Pepsi
He loves to cook so allow him
And he enjoys doing dishes so don’t stop him

Step up to receive him
Real to himself claims he
Buzan taught him the mind-map trick
De-bono teaches him how to think
Mc-Graw is his favourite shrink
And Blink is his favourite read

Step up to receive him
He write poems so read him
Talk about books and hell love you
Read his blog and he’ll acknowledge you
And he’s a thinker let him muse
Later he will tell you what’s in his mind

Step up to receive him
There is none like him claims he
He enjoys witty talk so indulge him
He has a staccato laugh so tickle him
He listens well so talk to him
And he's willing so try him

Step up to receive him
Step up with confidence
Let your heels lift you
As you come to sweep him off his feet
He’s ready are you ready?
Then step out and claim him.

Cross-roads

You traveled east
And he traveled west
The hope of you being
Had come to an end

None of you looked over the shoulder
For pain if your eyes met
It was indeed over
And evenly tears you wept

After countless hours and days
Of persuading your heart to let go
You finally managed to bury your pain
And you were ready to shut that door

But they say earth is an orb
And a small orb it turned out
For when again your paths crossed
Your bodies proved shallow to hide the buried emotions

Now old emotions are floating on the surface
Rocking you about like a boat in a raging storm
Its like you never moved, you’re rooted on the selfsame place
But you mind shifts in a Billion ways

Choice shows you different paths like a compass
Confusing both your heart and your mind
One is saying don’t go back but the other can’t resist the pull
Watching we wish we’d help but that’s our nagging dilemma too.

Ransoming Death

You couldn’t wait another moment
You couldn’t depart without him
So in your shadowy stealth
You extinguished his flame

And there was nothing but darkness
You had made your presence felt
When he breathed his last breath
Job done you went back to hide in Hades

You just robbed me of a friend
Robbed a son his dad
Robbed wife a husband
Siblings sibling all in one whisk

Oh cowardly dark death
Living in shadows in your deep dens
What price would you ask to ransom a life?
Name it so I’ll pay you off soyou'll keep off my friends’ lives

Say the amount and I’ll buy a gun and go robbing banks
And get you all the cash you want
If its jewels you’ll ask
I’ll get you every carat of gold and diamond there is in the world

Take NOT none of my dear ones I can’t endure the loss
Rather take me in their place
For even if you wreck my frame you’ll never douse my flame
My light will stay alive even through the wind and the rain

love bubbles

Love was once holding hands
Looking shyly into your eyes
That was love when I was young

Love became a hug
A small note written by hand
See, I was growing up?

Then love blossomed
Beautifully like a flower in summer sun
Its bright petals opening up

And then love song meant a lot
So I cut out lyrics of your favourite songs
And wrote you letters adapted from them

How fast I was growing up
I was ready for a kiss
& though she kept me waiting long, - ‘twas worth it

Now love was walking holding hands
So they stared at us but we couldn’t blink
We were in love and we didn’t give a (expletive deleted)!

Love has its cycles you see
With each cycle it brought out a bolder me
And if love blinds, my blindness was terminal

Love became going out
So off we went to Taco Bell
Then traveled all the way home holding hands

I was no longer young I wanted responsibility
So in the evenings I brought you Pizza and sprite to your hostel
You gave me a kiss for my troubles and I felt like King!

Then love waned and I was bored
So I took a break and went to write my poems
I had fun on my own until love came calling

So when I answered I came diving in deep
We went to coffee at The Mug and did movies at 20th
Then of you went and we text’d all the way home

Now when we held hands it was no longer awkward
No one stared at us funny
But if they did, it’s cos they were envious!

Love became sharing and talking
So we talked and talked till our batteries died
And when we met to talk hours flew away fast

Now shaped by all that
Love I guess means much more
Love is bold, its patient and its witty and funny

Love has hid its face from me momentarily
Which is okay but soon it’ll come knocking
And I will have another poem to write just like this one

Friends Forever

Will we be friends forever?
Will nothing ever separate us?
Look me in the eyes and tell me that
That the ravages of time will take nothing from us

Tell me we’ll be friends forever
Tell me tomorrow belongs to us
Say it to me without a trace of doubt
And with you I will set my feet forward

Tell me we’ll remain close
Wherever we’ll be in the world
Tell me that, tell me you know it
That you and I will always be friends

Cos’ only you and I
See the world with the same eyes
Feel feelings as with one heart
And think as with the same mind

See how our lives align
That these thoughts are as yours I have
That our feelings are mixed into one
Like a river flowing in one direction

Speak but do not swear nor vow
Just breathe out the affirmative word
And eternally I’ll hold
Our friendship so dearly close

The Walk Call

Let’s go for a walk my friend
Let’s go out and clear our heads
Away from these tarmac roads and concrete walls
To gravel paths where the trees grow tall

Side by side walk with me
To green fields with nesting birds
There let’s be as one with nature mixed
Filling our lungs with the freshest of air

While there lets free our senses to explore
Lets touch and feel, lets smell and taste
And watch as birds in flight or listen to their songs
Let’s take our time and be in no haste

Let’s go for a picnic and under a shade sit
Or go on a nature trail deep into the woods
Stand by the waterfalls and enjoy the blowing breeze
Or just lie on a patch of green grass and watch as clouds move

Let’s take this walk tomorrow
Pick any day and well just go
Well have fun I know
Tell me when you’re ready and well go.

My Disdained Poem (the poem you love to hate)

I cannot love you
My love tank is empty
I’ve called love rescue
To take me to a service bay
And probably I’ll be on the love road again

I cannot love you
I have leased out my love for years
A bad lease contract it has no exit clause
I truly do love you
But without my heart of what good am I to you

I cannot love you
For my love is badly overdrawn
I spent my love lavishly on another
Now my love account is in debit
A love cheque of all my love would surely bounce

I cannot love you
I cannot hurt again I can’t bear it
I’ve barricaded my heart
And until I’m off to my feet again
I’m keeping out of loves path

But when I do make a comeback
Wearing double socks in white sneakers
All filled up ready for new sign-up
My heart seeking out one with whom to unite
I will come straight to you
And i will forever adore you.

When It's Finally Over

When this is finally over my friend
And it’s going to over sooner than you think
We’ll go out and celebrate
We’ll put things in one corner and let the party begin

Together we’ll do this
Together because you’re my best friend
And best friends you taught me
Stick together to the end

We’ll cork open your favourite bottle of wine
Lift our glasses up and make a toast
``To victorious life’’, maybe you’ll say
``To the new star’’, maybe I’ll quip

I will play you your favourite songs
And I’ll make you stand up and dance
I’ll watch the magic in your eye
As we joke and laugh out loud

It’ll be a day of victory
And the world will see a new you
They’ll all want to hear your story
But when you tell them, ``not now’’ they’ll wait

You’ll have done it I’ll be so proud
Cos I’ve known your journey, I’ve seen your courage
Nothing will ever stop you you’ll rule the world
They’ll all love you, you’ll notice the change

When it’s really finally over
When we hit town to celebrate
Some will wonder who you are
And I’ll tell them to go home and watch the news

The party will run for days
We’ll do it like we’ve never done it before
In just a while longer my friend
It’s going to be all done and over

I believe that my friend
And I believe in you
I’m on those plans right now
I’m eagerly waiting, just like you.

Not So Long Ago

Not so long ago
In days gone by
Holding your souls aloft
Standing side by side
Far from worlds chaos
Free from worlds cares
Hands firmly clasped together
You stood as one

In cold frosty times
You boldly ventured out
Your confidence rising high
Higher that the high Alp
You relished your chances
Against this lame world
You laid out your plans
Eager to journey forth

Not so long ago
You stood your ground
Strong as a pillar
Nothing would shake you
You brimmed with confidence
Ready to start out
Like blasting launching rocke
Nothing could stop you

And with happy smiles
Hearts in deep delight
Swimming in sheer joy
Everything spelling one promise
We stood and beheld
The two of you
Meeting forming one identity
And we too shared in your joy
You had set us the pace.

Memories

Oh these precious memories
Well kept, well guarded
Away from times decay
Well shielded and well attended

Taken n total completeness
Treasured like jewel that’s timeless
I’ve build a firewall around them
To keep them safely protected

From them nothing could be taken or added
For in adding or taking I’d dismember what is perfect
The sum of it is bigger than its part
If I let a fragment from it fall, I’d hold myself in contempt

When I’m not looking out side I look inside
And let the memories play frame by frame
And watch and behold as beauty is redefined
When these precious memories comes flowing.

Hate To Lose

I had you
I still have you maybe
I do think of you
And I’m sure you think of me

I still love you
And you still love ma maybe
I dream of you
And I know you and I could be

I do miss you
You miss me too just agree!
I wonder too
It’s over and done between you and me

Oh how I hate to lose
And you do too that makes us two
I don’t want to lose you
Haven’t you ever said that too?

Hey, both of us could win
C’mon lets be real
It’s not easy but it’s that simple

Katie Kim' Kim' (a poem from the 12 women of phat)

You tell me you are the brighter one
And I claim to be the smarter one
Its ok, I know I’m a shade darker
So, fair; I agree you are indeed brighter

See how you’ve taught my mind wit?
How in just a single sitting you so much impressed me?
Could two minds by such a motley whirl of chance meet?
And so closely soon find their lives so closely knit

You impress me so much my friend
And friends from 1st to last I hope we remain
For if you could teach my mind wit in such a short stint
Could my mind conceive the things you’d teach it if we so remain?

If I could take an hour and with it my rest of my life build
I’d take one spent with you and my life thus seed
And each replicated minute I’d forever happily reap
New wonderful moments like ones before spent together

See the lofty leaps my mind makes when my inhibitions lift
Grafting grand thoughts when of you I think?
Were I as impressive with these papers and ink
Our friendship I’d once again with relish here re-live

With spontaneity of a master improv on stage
Owning the stage then your mind so would our story captivate
Bringing every subtle nuance to life for all to read
It’d be beyond a story, beyond a play and beyond poetry

But brevity is the soul of wit
Our mutual friend Shakespeare did teach
And I maintaining to be smarter one still
His words I heed and this poem here trim

But one last thing my friend I ask
You being the brighter one!
And I like a planting in the dark bending towards your light
That you always keep your light shining on our friendship

english:
meaning of the word improv ( underlined above)
Improv.... consists of developing scenes spontaneously.
It requires quick thinking and a tremendous amount of teamwork among those performing the scenes

I Googled it for you so that u don't have to!!! Don't u like me????

NEW BORDERS

The air smells different
The wind blows lazily
The streets are unfamiliar
No one smiles easily

I’ve journeyed long to be here
Leaping to meet the future
My shadow is my best pal
With me even on the moonlight

The nights are long and lonesome
So I hug tightly on my pillow
Wake up to a pen and paper
And try and mark my new borders

Will these streets love me?
Will these new faces smile at me?
Or will they say I’m too different?
And shut their doors to my face

I’m here with a plain canvas
What they show me I’ll colour
And once I get a clear picture
I’ll know if I’ll stay or pack up.

KEEP MOVING

Straight ahead I march
Holding it together like a leader of a marching band
Moving forward
Subduing thoughts of what I’ve left behind

Its time for myself
So I must push back the doubts that plague my mind
Think not of the bridges that have fallen
But think of the new ones I’ll put up as I move forward

I can’t look back
The rift has widened like a gulf where bridges were
But while the clock is still ticking
While I’m still alive and breathing
And my blood hot in my veins flowin
I must keep moving
Keep moving like a leader of a drive parade

Going To Meet Her

When I’m ready for her
Will be she be ready for me?
Now that I plan to go to her
Does she feel any longing for me?

I am packed ready for the journey
Ready to go and speak from my heart
I’ll not bore her with a memorized story
Stories a thousand and one she must have heard

I’m not the first she must have captivated
With the pull of her big heart that’s equal to none
But freely I go to her requiring not to be persuaded
Hoping that her yet unspoken promise will be uttered to me

When the words will be spoken I will be ready and near
Lifting each syllable like a precious piece of a jigsaw puzzle
Then I’ll know what’s in her heart
And I will speak and what’s taking me to her she’ll know

It might be tomorrow or the day after
Maybe a month from now or maybe at New Year
Confidently I’ll go to her with a list in my mind
I will lay my ask and hopefully it’ll be met with a smile.

Two Lifetimes once

When it hurts me
It also hurts you
cos part of me
Truly belongs to you
My heart beats in me
But I’m alive in you

When it hurts you
It KILLS me
Cos part of you
Belongs to me
Your soul enjoined with mine
And mine too with thine

I do not know
How we got so entwined
But I do know
Being so we life twice once
And living so
We live a fuller life
Living tw lifetimes once.

Comfort I do not seek

Oh warm clasping hands of comfort
Holding me clos under your wings
Shielding me from elements I’d readily confront
Free me from your grasp and let me be

Haven’t I fought and won my battles before
Albeit with the discomfort of having my knuckles bruised
Then, I needed you not and neither do I now
Flee from me you cannot contain my stirred spirit

What could you do for me that I couldn’t do for myself?
Except turn me into a slob for a few hours of thy comfort
I scoff at your comfort; I’ll not fall for your wiles
Haven’t you checked, are you blind, cant you see I write my own script!

I seek not thy comfort
Let me eat the coals in the end I’ll make diamonds
Let the harsh elements rub against me
And smoothen up my rough edges

And when it’s all done
I’ll create my own comfort
Farthest from your hands
But now, away! Thy comfort I do not need

FORGET YESTERDAY

Forget yesterday
Forget the scars and the injuries
It’s a new day
A new light shines Brightly

The pain goes away here
You shall know no more tears
Give me all your fear
And no more pain shall you bear

I’m right here with you
I’m never going away
When you turn left I’ll turn with you
Be with you every step of the way

Forget yesterday
Here let’s begin anew
Let’s open a fresh page
And let’s colour something new

We’ll create new memories
And have fun while at it
We’ll share a new story each day
Every day we’ll be turning a page

Forget yesterday
Think only from this day
Here let’s begin
Life freshly renewed.

. BOLD TO LOVE

I will be bold for once
Bold enough to claim this heart
I will take this heart of yours
Boldly, as boldly as you’ve chosen only me to have it

To me it matters not that it’s not perfect
It matters that it’s the nearest perfect that I’ve come across
And truly the preciousest
That I almost consider myself unworthy to have it

I’ll take your heart, I’ll receive it with love
Most joyfully I’ll take your heart
Most proudly, all of it, and love it with my all
All my doubts are emptied by the charm of your heart

Oh this gentle heart
Most gentle of all gentlemen’s hearts I’ve met
Had it to be broken, had it to be hurt?
The mere thought drives me crazy it hurts

I will be gentle with it I vow
Not by empty vows countless men have spoken and broken
But I vow by love
Love which breaks all boundaries all men have erected

Around your heart is where I want to be forever
And the paths around it to discover
How wise of you to bind love with adventure
Precious and wise, Why hadn’t our path meet sooner

I’ll take this heart of yours
Cos you’ve believed in me
I’ll hold it with a smile
And as with yours with mine too the same I ask
That you too take my heart

JOJO (JOYCE MUSIYA)

Young yet so wise
Humble yet so smart
I came to you for advice
But you give me more than that

See how you led me to light
Each word pointing me to a direction like a map
See how you help me conjure up hope
And how now I stand tall because you’ve mentored me well

Yesterday I remember began with a smile
Now it seems a long way back
And it is, we’ve come from so far
Tomorrow, just like today we’ll stand proud

For our friendship stands on solid ground
Firm and steady like an anchored in ship
God bless you for mentoring me well
And for being such a wonderful friend

TAKE THIS HEART OF MINE

Of my heart part 2
(adapted from,``Take this heart of mine''.
 
Take this heart of mine
And take care of it
This heart is all that’s mine
I want only you to have it

It’s not perfect I know
But it’s the nearest perfect you’ll ever come acros
The preciousest you’ll ever hold
If you doubt that then I doubt this heart I should let you hold

Take my heart, take it all
I’m not holding anything back
To love I will with all I’ve got
Even through the hurts I’ll emerge again to love

Be most gentle with this heart
You see the lines, it’s been broken before
Torn apart and the blood let to run
Of course it hurt like mad so again I ask be gentle

Now that it’s mended, healed again and whole
Filled to the brim with love & refueled with hope
This precious heart of mine opens out to you
To hold you close in the warmest embrace

Spend time with it, draw closer
Don’t be far from it, be near and of it discover
Test it, try it; but love always it
With the warmest of hugs always embrace it

Take this heart of mine
Cos’ I’ve believed in you
With a smile take it and keep it well loved
It’s all I ask of you, it’s the much I’ll ever ask

Under Your Shadow.

Sometimes the sun doesn’t shine
Sometimes the moon goes away to hide
Sometimes the star are hid behind the cloud
Sometimes I wonder if I’m strong enough

These times I search for new light
These times I’m dying to hear the right words
These times your encouragement is my only hope
These times I look for one to hinge my trust on

Finding rest under your shadow
Safety and protection under your shadow
Renewed and strengthened under your shadow
And my confidence is restored under your shad

So through the gloomiest of days
Through the darkest, moonless and starless nights
Through the coldest longest days
I find warmth that restores my being

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From the 12 women of Phat...

1.
There is God
And there is a goddess
One here on earth
The other up in heaven
Both do love me in excess
One defies description
(Or nowadays you can describe God?)
And the other is simply my Mom!

If I did turn out great
I couldn't have hadn't she raised me well
I'm grateful to her in so many ways
Yet I couldn't thank her enough
So God bless my mum.

.To mum

Of my heart

My heart is out there somewhere
Hidden and parted out of sight
Where the glow of the moon rule the night
And a billion stars light its path

Free and unbound, in fields of endless expanse
That's where my heart is at
Washed, clothed and cuddled in such tenderness
That it could experience no harm

It shall not hurt again this heart of mine
With beautiful words it shall not be enticed
Nor ensnared with beautiful smiles
With another it shall take no chance

Free to enjoy its boundless freedom
Free to move as the four winds
Free without any inhibitions
Freely it's enjoying its peace

To whose call shall it heed if it ever does?
And to whom shall it appear first?
When it leaves it's refuge and its comforts
Who will receive it with an open heart?

Do for love

She has completely taken over
And I have yielded to her charm
She says the words and I roll over
I would do anything for her

If she said, kill that-one
I would readily kill for her
Or if she did kill one
I'd bury the body for her

If you ask me, for what?
I answer you, For love!
Doesn't love conquer all?
And her love has got me in awe

She has loved me so much
What I'd do for her wouldn't be enough
Now my friends look for me but I'm not there
I've neglected them all to be with her

Friends, understand for I speak from my heart
Understand that I cant see you no more
Beyond the reach of her shadow I cant go no farther
I couldn't walk away from this love

If she ever started a fight
I'd be there to finish it for her
She has me feeding from off her palm
And I've completely surrendered to her.


Disclaimer:1. Against killing; Thy shall not kill,
Exds 20:13
2. Hyperbole!

The Eclipse

(Written in the dark hours of 2009)

Is this really me
Whom I am now but yesterday i was not?
Can I still be me
While I've been stripped of all i ever was?

I'm no longer myself
Whats left of me is nothing but a shell
Broken and emptied
Even my words are hollow and meaningless

My life is about finding answers
But now to all that matters I find none
All seems blurred I cant tell wrong from right
My mind is blunted and my spirit is numb

I once was but I'm no longer
The transition was slow but it sure happened
The rain poured fast and harder
And like a bleach it washed away all my colours

But earth is not spoiled by a single shower
The old sage Swinburne observed
Though the rain has fallen and ruined all the ripe corn
From the same ground the fallen seeds will eventually sprout!

Coffee Call

Take me out for coffee my dear
Take me out and make my year
Not to Java or Coffee House there I've been
Rather take me to a place I've never been

And there let's be like we've never been
Just sit and allow our senses to speak
Savouring the steaming coffee in our mouths
Deeply lost in our own world

Take me out today or tomorrow
Say the words and I'll follow
If you will, Let us have this cup
Set before us for our time is now

Tell me the time and the place
And eagerly I'll count the hours to the day
Home coffee would be nice as well
I'm waiting dear, What do you say?

....White, and three sugars please!

.....Actually, someone responded to my coffee call, Sherie, My friend. aaaaand we went to coffeeworld just op nandos on moi av. I liked it. Hadnt been there before but would recommend it. Its warm in a way n with warm colours inside too.I liked the place n we liked the gals (staffs) T-shirts. The stand-alone seats are not very comfy but there others that are. Their coffee is fine. We didnt write Minutes guys so dont ask me how it went!!!! But it was lovely being with you Sherie. Thanks Big.
If you wanted to take me out buh somehow din't, wait for Lunch call!!!Or, Dinner call,,,,,now i like the sound of that.

Billboard Of Hope

Your beautiful smile
Warm, priceless and sweet
Add the sparkle of your eyes
And its just how a smile should be

That's your smile my friend
It's like a well told story
Fresh from the beginning to the end
Always winning the hearts of many

Smile for me my friend once again
Smile for my hearts delight
And quicker than one with canvas &paint
I will immortalize your smile

I will capture it and frame it in my mind
And set it high above like a billboard
From wherever I'll be I'll see it and smile back
Inspired, I'll leave the sidewalk and into the road

Your smile teaches me hope
And what a teacher to instruct my mind
Smile so beautiful and full of soul
What a precious gift you freely gift the world

Now teach my heart to smile
And you'll see my face too happily oblige
Brighten the world with your smile
And make light all our hearts.


p.s With gratitude to Jojo
whose first smile I still remember
And whose friendship I treasure.

A Note To My Friend

..To My Friend who I Miss So much


My dear friend how do I even begin
Should I let my mind or my heart speak?
Oh if I could call them both to meeting
And qualify one which would better tell my feelings

Time and space has conspired to separate us
Knocking down the bridge that linked us
But sitting upon the banks I write you this letter
Lifting it up like a banner so you could see it from afar

Though we be parted for months and days
Love protected and kept safe remains
Our friendship is love in a different shape
And love does outlive even the longest of days

Some day, some hour, speedily and soon
We'll hold hands like we used to do
And talk & laugh like only I & you could do
Sharing chocolate & sipping Pepsi like we used to do

Then, Nothing well ever come between us
Not the length of days nor the breadth of nights
Nor space nor distance
For our cloven paths will have been woven back into one.

So much Love

I cant belive I'm these happy
How can I relish a storm?
Look at how much luv you're showing me
Adding to the debt of gratitude I owe u all
How did we come to this?
Still, how did our bond grow so strong?
My bed is big u know, but its not big enuff
Me & u it'd fit you know, but it'd not fit us all
But oh wait I see in a place that 'd fit us all
In my heart, there's space enough
Sure it'd fit us all.

(The poem is a stub, help me complete it
suggest ur own lines n lets complete it)

The Lift

High up the steps
One foot at a time
Climbing up the stairs
My feet carry me up

Rising,
I rise above myself
Above who i was
Higher and higher
To the world i belong

Lifting up
Leaving my weight behind
Light, like a lit rocket fired up
Light, like a baloon floating up
To meet & kiss the cool clouds above

I fly
Past time, past space
Past memories of days
Fast in a speed of light
Far into outer space
In newness of me

Smiling
As the million stars cheer for me
The winds of Jupiter blow on my face
The ashen light of Venus glow on me
The comets & metoers orbit around me

Looking down
Down at the bluey earth
Whose pull of gravity
I would have none
Whose wintery winter I would none
Nor the sweltering heat of summer

For here
With metoerites for neighbours
& My soul so close home
I desire of nothing
Nothing else apart from what
I can lay my eyes on

The beauty
Untold beauty beyond all imagination
To which my heart runs forth

Call for Recess

Season one is over
So,i'm sending myself home
To go go thru' some things over
See if I'll up my game
And prabably
When I come back
Rejuvinated &un-weary
A'l put out a bigger,
A smarter seaon
With more swagger
(Did Phat say Swagger?
Yep, I did! I did!)
So we see
E-other then?
Nothing but,
I mean nothing buh,
Ok,let me re-load that,..
Nothing buh Love
Hasn't it been real?
Sherry
Gracie,
Mary
Joy
Liv
Juliet
Simon
Kui
Nimoh
Hellen
Lillian
Dorcas
Ritah...
You,
Everyone,
I culdnt possibly
mention all o'yal
the faceless,
the nameless,
&
all...
see you in season 2

DAD AM I A FOOL?

A million words
From a million foolish minds
A couple of million smiles
Learnt as a subject in school these days
Such is our lives
We blinded by fogs of follies

As if in a cast
We fete and crown our clowns
We feast and make merry
As we knight our unfitting stars
And which stars?
Stars we cast in theaters of our lives

There are no auditions
Anyone who can breath is our pick
Thus we mark our lives
In scenes thats perfectly mimic our sins
Oh Hail Mary
Most blessed, come quick see

Chaotic freedom
Freedom for the million foolish minds
What foolish wisdom
That the wise must sift through every word
Hear their million words
See the fading glow of their drowning light

How they succeed in their glorious failures
This I'm not part of
Them I run farthest away from
And that my pals can easily co-sign
That I never played a foolish mind
I couldn't cut it in audition
If I ever tried
For my smart disguised would still show
Me Poppa I'm not a fool.

The Encore

I will write no more
This is my encore
One last poem
Before I take a bow
I'm retiring my pen
Kissing these papers goodbye
A kiss so sweet you wish it was thine!

Look what I leave behind
When I'm gone yet un-gone
My image clearly tatted in your mind
Like a tattoo you could never fade me out
Echoes of my voice ringing in your heart
Again and again mimicking the beating of your heart

In `one me' didn't I tell you there is none like I
To find yourself you could say you needed my eye
Pardon my blasphemy if you hear me callin myself god
Its just that Sherrie told me that writers have a soul
(Oh, wasn't her words just so profound?!)
...And if a souls dies not, Hey that makes me what?

I had you hooked at one me
My first poem off my first book
You could say it was love at first sight
I mean, love at first words!
I painted beautiful words in colour
Like my fingers and pens were cartridge and toners

Now I cant go away for a moment
Without one of you calling out my name
I'm way bigger than myself
Though few will realize that and not well after I'm gone
W.W.W.phatsworldpoetry.blogspot.com is what I'm leaving behind
So many waiting to get their name in it

Its the holy grail for the who's who
Thats why only a chosen few will grace it
See me fly with angels
And here are my last words,
`` I'm from Above!''.

Don't chicken out.

You chicken out, you chicken out
Why the hell do you chicken out
You smile at me
I smile back
You say hi to me
I stop shake your hand
You say goodbye
I pat your shoulder
You start to walk
I watch you go
You wanted to talk
But you chicken out
Why the hell do you chicken out

I ask your number
you give it to me
I haven't called
Cos I'm just being a boy
You don't call mine
Heck you're being a lady!
But we meet again
Now we're even pals in facebook
You check my profile
And know I'm single
You are feeling something
But you chicken out
Why the hell do you chicken out?

You invite me to an event
And I sure attend
You are looking good
I'm looking better!
This time we hug
Tell you're smelling nice
I also hug your pal
She is smelling wow
I talk to her
And we exchange numbers
She is already texting me
And the day ain't over
She can tell I like her
Now you're out of the picture
So before I sleep
I make sure I call her
O.m.g we talk for hours
We'll sure be dating
Next time you see us
You could have been her
But tell that to the ya pals
cos you chickened out
You chickened out
That's because you chicken out?

How you and I meet.

She is tall, she is cute
That's how I see her in my dream
She smiles at me
And I smile back, and there our eyes meet
We sit to talk
Her voice is a dance, her words are poetry
I love her words
I'm already in love with her voice
I listen and pick her mind
And she's got the smart to be my friend

I take her hand
An admire her cute slender fingers
Her hair is lovely
And her lips are so tempting
She's an angel
Her beauty is heavenly
And when we stand to walk
I swear I ain't seen one walk with such grace
She is sweet
And her warmth melts away the ice-caps of my heart

Her energy is lifting
High like a tidal-wave, sweeping me off my feet
I absolutely adore her
Even before I get to really know her
So soul to soul
We are engrossed in a hearty chat
Our once broken cords
Are sewn into one in a fleeting moment
The magic of the gods
The gods of love toast to our long enduring love

Two souls but one heart
There, that's how you and I meet.

Hello Phat.... (letter from a pal)

Hey Phat, tell me how are you doing?
I've been following you, there are so many thing I like about you
You are great in so many ways and I'm not just saying it
I've been following your blog too
Plus I love how you make comments on facebook too
I think what you write is cool!
Your last poem,''in my mind'', is my new favourite
If may ask, who or what is it about?
I saw you looking good in a suit the other day
I was like wow,You look so damn good so corporate
I agree with what your pals said, you should suit up more often
The other day you had a big cake on your birthday
You must have had fun, please do invite me next year
Phat, I like the changes you've made on your life this year
Like you ain't taking alcohol and you're now going to church
And are you serious you would do a wedding now?
I somehow look up to you Phat, you inspire me somehow
You are my hero, if I get a son I might call him Phat!
Anyway,there is something you and me should talk about
I was worried for you, I know its been rough with La-vista and your gal
How did it go, and how are you really coping?
You seem to be going back and forth
But keep your head up everything is going to be alright
I love your attitude, your optimism and your faith
Don't lose them, not like that
You've got great friends I admire them a lot
If you don't mind you could introduce me them sometime
I hope you and I will always be good pals
I'm not loud or clumsy plus I believe in you Phat
I have to go but I'll sure be reading your blog and your wall
Plus I'm going to church where you go I might bump into you there
I stay by your place so if we bump at the stairs I'll say hi
And say hi to your cute pals Sherry, Gracie and Mary
I do hope to meet them someday
Stay smart and look after yourself.

Out.

HOW MUCH LONGER

How much longer
Before I can get her number
And before I can call her
Before I can ask her out
And find out if she is seeing someone

How much longer
Before I can reach out and hold her hand
Then release and see if she'll hold on to mine
before I can hug her close enough
And long enough to feel the beating of her heart

Tell me how much longer
Before I can rest my head on her shoulder
And then turn my head towards her neck and smell her
Before I can ran my hands gently on her back
And no t be afraid to run my fingers through her hair

Who knows how much longer
Before we can have our first kiss
And before I can go back and tell my friends
Before I can invite her to my place
And cook for her my favourite dish

Who knows how much longer
Before I'm so smitten about her
and I cant think of nothing else but her
And before I cant go to bed before I say good night

Who knows how much longer
Before she meets all my friends
And before I can take her to meet my parents
Before her name appears on my poems
And before I give her the password to my blog

Who knows how much longer
Before our kiss is lasting for more than a minute
And before I can kiss her on her forehead
Before I can dance for her and she laughs
And before I can look deeply into her beautiful eyes

How much longer
Before she's my girlfriend
And I her boyfriend
Before she can tap my hand as we talk
And before I can hold her hand as we walk

How much longer
Before I can take chocolate from her mouth
And then return it with a kiss just for the fun of it
Before I'm calling her when I'm out to ask her what to bring her
And before I can tell her favorite drinks and her flavour

How much longer
Before the inevitable first fight
And then the sorry, the gifts and the make up
Before we can lay in bed for hours just talking
And then pillow-fight until we are sweating and laughing

How much longer
Before I can slip the ring in her finger
And tell her I want to spend the rest of my life with her
Before she wipes away the happy tears
And nods her head smiling finally saying yes!

How much longer
Before she's my wife
And I'm the happiest man alive
Before we visit the doctor together
And the doctor tells me I'm going to be a father

How much longer
Tell me please
Whom holds those answers.

If

If I gave you what you wanted
Would you give me what I need
If its my heart that you wanted
Would you meet all its needs

If I let you into my heart
Would you cater to its whims
If I hadn't what you wanted
Would you say that I am mean

If I let you into my heart
Would you bend yo its every whim
If I let you into my soul
Would you trade it for gold

If I told you all my secrets
Would you keep and never tell
If I let you into my fears
Would you teach me not to be afraid

If I was yours and truly yours
Would you live with the boy in me
If I wrote a poem for another gal
Would you be jealous yet still love me more

If I couldn't be able to write for you
Would it be OK if I danced instead
If you I wasn't the best dancer
Would it be OK of I just snapped my fingers

If someone else loved me better
Is it OK if I see them once in a while
If I dint want you cos you were too good for me
And I'm such a jerk
Would you persuade me to remain and keep trying.

In my mind

In my mind I create a perfect world
In my mind nothing ever goes wrong
In my mind I can arrest errors before they happen
only in my mind

In my mind I think of your love
In my mind I have an ideal gal
In my mind I make wishes for both of us
only in my mind

In my mind you are the cutest gal in the world
In my mind you are perfect you could do nothing wrong
In my mind I get lost when I pictur
e you in my thoughts

only in my mind
In my mind you and me are not two but one
In my mind we are connected by something bigger that ourself
In my mind its me and you,- me and you forever
only in my mind

In my mind I think of you from sunrise to sunset
In my mind you are always there, always by my side
In my mind I talk to you and you answer me back
only in my mind

In my mind there is a pictureful album with images of you
In my mind there are records of your sweet voice
In my mind I play records of your chuckles and your laughter
only in my mind

In my mind you have the most perfect body
In my mind there's none with such beautiful hips as yours
In my mind I can feel your fingers running over my face
only in my mind

In my mind I can see you walking beside me
In my mind I can dial your number with my eyes shut
In my mind I can feel you thinking of me and whispering my name
only in my mind

In my mind when we talk
And I say all the right words
In my mind I can anticipate words before you speak them
In my mind I listen when you talk and nod and smile
only in my mind

In my mind we dance,- you teach me to dance
In my mind you're patient with me, you know I'll get it right someday
In my mind I hold your hand and you tell me everything
only in my mind

In my mind we go out and talk and joke and its so much fun
In my mind we sit on stones on a picnic and bite on cookies
In my mind we drink from the same bottle and the same straw
In my mind

In my mind everything stops when I see you and all I can do is smile
In my mind you make me so happy all I want is to stay with you
In my mind when its time to go I feel sad but we always meet again
n my mind

In my mind I'm incomplete its you who complete me
In my mind you have made me a better man you've taught me a lot
In my mind we are united in mind and soul there is no me but we
only in my mind

In my mind you are the gal of my dream, no one could better you
In my mind I hope to find you I'm working on myself for you
In my mind I repent to God cos I worship you more
only in my mind

In my mind an angel is like you and you are like an angel
In my mind like the sun and moon you brighten me up
In my mind you live and sleep you belong
only in my mind

In my mind we are GREAT, greater than Romeo & Juliet
In my mind our story of love will be bigger than Leila's and Majnuns
In my mind I'm more smitten than Lynsyder ever was for Hermia
only in my mind

In my mind I can never lose you, you are always with me
In my mind I hug you and kiss your sweet lips and my heart lifts
In my mind I've kissed you from your forehead to your toe
in my mind

In my mind I'm looking for you and when I do I'll know
In my mind you will love me for me and I'll love you for you
In my my mind we will good to each other from start to end
In my mind

In my mind I desire of nothing else if should find you not
Not of food be it sweeter than chocolate
Nor of gift be they come wrapped in petals
Nor of music be it a whole symphony
Nor of promise and mostly not of tomorrow
Nor of hope for hope is nothing but self promise
Nor of perfume be it Adidas or Nivea sport!
Nor of poems be they from Rumi
Nor of kisses be they from Jennifer Hudson
Nor of faith even though I've lost mine
Nor of new shoes be they Airforce or Dockers
Nor of an extra pair of socks even if I was only in one pair
Nor of sleep for before I find you sleep is naught
Nor of a sweet voice if its not yours
Nor of smiles if its not yours
Nor of peace for without you I can not know peace
Nor of rest for I will rest not until I find you
And nor of poem for this is my last.

For Sherie (my good friend).

She came my way
Seeking to replace a lost shuttle-cork
I looked at her and asked her
If all the other angels in heaven also played badminton
And there our friendship began
Then 1st, I mispronounced her name
And her, She said mine with an accent
She was vested in whites - White pure and clean
She promised to teach me how to wear whites
I promise her i don't make promises but I'd try
She read my poetry - I read her `dreams'
She told me writers have a soul
I thought, Wow, that's so profound
And though my very soul was troubled
She was the friend, the angel looking out for me
Now that the waters of my seas are calm
And my soul steeled with peace
Reflecting on the thought that writes have a soul
I have for you this syllogism
If a soul is a god,
And a soul dies not,
Then Am I he who is eternal?

``For He will command His Angels concerning you..''
Psalms 91-11.

Thats her, Whats you?

She has seen a lot to make her cry
That if she is the type that cries
Tears would have eroded her face

She has seen a lot to drive her nuts
That if she was the type that cracks
She would have lost her mind

She has soaked a lot of hate
That if she were to retaliate
Some people would be lying dead

She has nursed a lot of stress
That if she was the type that get depressed
Ulcers would have driven her to death

She has faced a lot of temptations
That if she was the kind that don’t pray
She would already lost her faith

She has been through ups and down
That if she dwelled on the downs
She would have thrown the towel and quit

But through thick and she had held herself together
Kept her faith and prayed to God for answers
And promised herself never to give up

unbroken

I must confess here and now i feel unwell
The more i fight it the more i hurt as i linger in denial
Among all the others love is the GREATEST of them all
Take away that and all your other pieces crumble and fall

Oh look how now in my fragility I'm shaken
How these little pleasures i indulged feels tasteless
From where i stood high above my rose has fallen
And in my chase i roll and roll in confusion

At night i lay in my bed to sleep but my sleep is wretched
For my mind , my thoughts and my emotions have run riot
My confidence is shaken and in my vulnerability I'm not my own
My old eloquence is my new incoherence, my words are not my own

This loss, this particular loss has left me broken
I bet the only place that i remain in fullness is outside myself
Eros the god of love has taken away my golden bow and arrows
Turning against me and now the sharp shafts deep in my heart now lodge

But how could two halves of a perfect heart that had held together fast,
Two halves of a perfect heart that was filled from the heart to the
lips with love,
Two halves of a perfect heart that stood soul to soul as years passed
Let love in its bloom, get plucked and die as a leaf that dies only in a day?

Oh Love lift up your eyes over this wall that stands between us
Meet mine and see where GREAT love is
For I have loved you with my whole souls might
And still my very love of you fills me

How I wish I could change my sweet one love with words
Put back the smile on those sweet lips that I once sipped from
And We would glow to rival the brightest of stars
You and me splendid in one spirit

Angels and the deuce

AGAINST ALL ODDS……………

I know you have some reasons to look back but don’t
Lets move on
You may also have a reason to cry but please don’t
Don’t do it over bygones
Things may not be looking good right now but hold on
It’s only for a while
Keep your head up and don’t despair
Just do what you should
I know sometimes it seems so unfair
But stick by your rules
You can get through this you have a strong mind
Just listen to your heart
Forget all the pain in the past and look at the bright side
And you will free you mind
Forget whatever they meant when they said that…………………
Because you are stronger than that
And please don’t beat yourself so hard
The darkness will soon pass
Look at yourself in the mirror you are too precious
Never forget that
Against all odds you will make it
Just trust yourself
Hold on and be strong you will weather the storms


ANGELS AND THE DEUCE

Now you couldn’t be more skeptical
About who you hang out with
Quickly envy is turned to jealousy
You can’t tell angels from the deuce
Today people sit close to you
Tomorrow they are on the other side of the rail
They will push you in front to get behind you
You know they couldn’t cope with the pace
Now they wish you too would slip

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BLINDED

Its funny how some people want to be you
They think that your life is all smooth
Even wish that they could trade place with you
They look and think that it has been all- smooth
Truth. Outside looks cool but sometimes inside is blue
But they are blinded by envy they can’t see through
Give them half your day and they couldn’t pull through
With nervous breakdown they would lie in I.C.U.
But cool is how their eyes see you
That’s why you will constantly see them blind staring you
But how could they possibly know or tell
That they can’t be themselves and be someone else
That even when they see you there
You could be far away miles and miles


WITHIN

Within herself she is trapped
And only from outside
Does she see herself
Her body is trapped inside itself
She moves from here to there
but cant escape hersrelf
Her emotions are as crossed
as her strained laughter
Expressions on her face
are masked under a screensaver
In her mind ideas are threaded
from the past to the future
While her body is still
Her mind races ahead miles and miles
Setting her mind free as she floats in dreams